FrankJrsStory2

"In The Stillness Of The Night"

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In the stillness of the night

When the moon is all aglow,

Can you see down through the light

To where I am down below?

Do you taste the tears I'm crying?

Do you brush my windswept hair?

Is that you beside me lying?

Or when I'm sitting in your chair?

The gentle breeze that's always blowing

In the stillness of the night,

These are the things that keep me going

As I gaze up into the light...

Written by and

Barbara Shewak

"In Loving Memory Of Frank Haggerty Jr."

We Moms remember eveything in our childrens lives,

Ask any Mom about the birth of her child, Believe me she will remember Every detail...No matter what age the child is and no matter how many she has, A Mom remembers every minute,

It is deeply engraved in her heart and soul...The 1st everything also we remember,The sound of the voice the first time we heard them cry, skinned knees, the gentle moments, 1st "I love you's",

1st Day of school, I mean everything...

Ask A Mom about the loss of her child and she may cry but every moment is also relived everyday of her life for the rest of her life...Deeply Engraved Forever.

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I always asked him if everything was alright,

"Of course it is,Why wouldn't it be" is what he would answer.

I knew something was not right; So many mood swings,

So many times not coming home at all just worried me to no end.

He did agree to come with me to the Doctor,And he did start taking Prozac but after awhile on these he said he didn't "feel right" so I asked the Doctor to look into it for him, The Doctor said "Give it more time"...

Well I thought 3 months was enough time and it needed to be changed...Frank Jr. stopped taking them about 3 weeks before

his death and I don't know if this may have contributed to his death or maybe it was the rehabs that turned him away.

We had gone to four (4) rehabs on June 28th looking for HELP, Frank Jr. was asking for HELP!!!!! They told him he was "not suicidal enough" to be admitted, and turned him away! I was in shock by this kind of behavior from so-called professionals, even after we told them that, yes, Frank Jr. would do harm to himself. The next day, I went to the store early that morning, leaving him with my other son Thomas. I asked Frank Jr. what he would like for dinner, and he said "a nice fat steak." I told him "Good choice," and I went; when I came home, he was acting kind of strange and said he wanted to go see his son Tyler for a little while. I offered to drive him -- because in his state, I didn't want him driving -- but he wouldn't hear of it. He went to the garage and before he got into his car, he said, "Mom, I love you, I always have, and don't ever forget I told you that!"

Frank Jr. did go see Tyler; he went to his girlfriend's job afterward, asking if they could get back together and make another try at it. She said no, telling him he needed help -- she didn't know he tried to get it, but was turned away. So Frank Jr. took out a gun and shot himself in the head in his car. He died two hours later in the hospital, the same one that had turned him away. I was in shock, knowing that he had just been there the day before, trying to GET help! Our lives have been shattered and nothing will ever be the same.

"Nothing is more dangerous then sincere ignorance

and contientious stupidity"...

I will never give up on you, my angel: for what it is worth, I am going to fight with all my might to get the systems to change, not only for our children, but for their children, and all the others that just need help. Is that too much to ask? NO, it's not! It will not bring you back, my son, but I promise you they will change the way they look at someone from now on. I promise this to you with all my heart. You needed help, and they said you didn't; you proved them so very wrong, and as long as I live, I will see that everyone gets the help they need. That's not too much to ask for, is it?

I have cried so many tears that I could fill an ocean. I have seen what a "no" can do. My sweet, sweet son, may you be at peace. Let Mom finish what they would not. You are in our hearts forever and ever. I am keeping the faith and, until we meet again, I will always love you for who you were and what you were. My Son.

Forever in our hearts...

Love Mom, Dad, Nana,Thomas, Your Family and Friends

A Mother's Agony,

A Mother's Story About Her Son.

"God took the sunshine from the skys,

And made the love light in your eyes...

And with His love made you devine,

But most of all he made you mine."

Quoted by Eileen Bowen Smigiel

For Her Son ^Joey^

I would like to add here that my son ^Frank Jr.^ was an Organ Donor...

After all was said and done that could be done for ^Frank Jr.^ at the hospital, After he died they brought in the Organ Donor people and

requested for my son to be an organ donor, I had to leave the room but his father, Big Frank, stayed...

In the end my son gave so much to so many others even after he died...

My son was Always helping and giving to people that needed him,

so this was just one more of the legacies he left behind, One more reason for us, his family, To Be So Very Proud Of Him...

Frank Jr. let others have the gift of life and sight after his body was no longer of use to him...

I heard from one lady who recieved my son's corneas now she can see again,

she was almost blind.Frank Jr.'s organs were given to so many...

I could not have made that decision on my own but with the help of my husband big Frank he helped me understand ...

He made sure what they were going to take and what they weren't,

And he went back to the hospital after they had taken what they said was needed, Then he walked into the room and looked at our son!!

I don't know how he did it, But he wanted to make sure they Only took what they said they were going to take and what was needed...He stayed till he was certain and then said his good~byes to our son one more time, Until they meet again.

I'm sure I could not have done that but big Frank is a very strong minded and strong willed man and would not let his son be cut up like that ...I do not talk about this often but I want people to know a part of my son still lives on.

My Mom (Frank Jr.'s Nana) was once again alot of help with that to,

Helping me understand that so many people will be helped and be able to LIVE through Little Frank, I knew she was right,

It Was The Right Thing To Do! If you are thinking about giving the "Gift Of Life" by donating your organs please start by clicking on this link for more information Organ Donor Information U.S.A.